Liz Buchanan BVSc MRCVS
Keymaster
First, I'm sorry that you lost your boy and are experiencing all the feelings that go with that. This includes one of the early stages of greif, the 'bargaining' phase, during which owners look for reasons why (whatever happened) shouldn't have happened - for example, that your vet should have given more (or different) injections, or investigated the problem more. This is an absolutely normal, understandable, well documented phase of greif which is a painful process. What you haven't addressed here is what was wrong with your cat - neurological signs, weight loss and collapse are serious symptoms usually connected to serious disease. You don't say why your vet didn't do any further tests; was it that they knew that there was a lump in your cats' abdomen, which they could feel through the body wall? Or because they assumed a space occupying lesion in the brain and MRI was outside the resources available? Or because if they had found something on MRI, they already knew that they wouldn't have done anything differently? I suspect that they'd have ruled out hyperthyroidism (treatable) if that had been a possibility. Given that your vet had already proposed euthanasia, it is a surprising proposition that repeated shots or tablets could have avoided or apppropriately postponed death. After all, vets are in the buisiness of maintaining quality of life, so if repeated drugs had been a realistic proposition, I would have expected your vet to have encouraged it. I wonder whether they were trying to encourage euthanasia and gave an artificial boost from an injection (a steroid, perhaps?) to give you time to come to terms with the terminal nature of the disease. This is harsh speculation on my part; to find out for sure, you would want a conversation with your vet (i would encourage this) in which you ask these painful questions. Alternatively, you could seek a formal second opinion. You could consult the RALPH site, a charity aiming to help owners after the death of abeloved pet. I do hope that something here turns out to be useful and please do not let the direct nature of my advice detract from the strength of the feeling, pain and anger that most owners would be feeling at this time. Greif is very real, should be honoured and you should go on asking questions until you are satisfied, because through doing this, you will either expose a problem with your cats' treatment - and thereby help other cats - or progress through your greif.
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